losing friends

Grieving the Living

Grief. It’s hard enough when you lose someone you love to death but it’s even harder when that person is still alive.

It’s not that you want them to be gone but it’s that the version of them that you knew and loved is gone.

You don’t know where the old version of that person went.

They look the same, yet they are entirely different. Completely unrecognizable.

You grieve for who they were.

You miss the good memories.

You grieve the memories that will never be.

You desperately want them to come back.

You want them to be who they were. Who you know they are.

But you don’t know if they will ever come back.

10 Things I Hate About You…

I hate the way you cut me out of your life

and how you left without a word

I hate your stupid hair

and your big goofy grin

I hate the way you stopped calling

and how you changed overnight

I hate that you made me laugh

even worse that you made me cry

I hate it when you lie

and the fact that you let us drift apart

But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you

not even close

not even a little

not even at all